Last post I shared about my week of transformation with the mechanics of the class, space, the instructors and overall how much I enjoyed this workout. To be honest I need to share that after taking the challenge I experienced a shift within my own relationship with my body, mind and soul.
Here are a few Aha! Moments:
1. Completed the challenge! This is huge for me as I did something that challenged within my core and I showed up no matter how sore my muscles were. I did modifications and took break between challenging poses (thigh sets). I kept the expectations on this challenge simple just show up and do the best that you can. It wasn’t about losing inches/weight although that was a nice side effect. It was about allowing myself to have the opportunity to do something that was out of my comfort zone.
2. I am strong and fearless. Through the physical work of the class, I was able to connect my own emotional strength to my physical body. I can see that being fearless is not about the absence of fear, its about walking through it even though it feels so scary to do it. I walked through the story that I was still too fat and weak to do this class and getting out with a fresh perspective, I am strong, beautiful and graceful.
3. Treat my inner child. Once upon a time I thought I wanted to be a ballerina. I was probably 5 or 6 and then I moved on to becoming an artist, later years I moved on to more practical work such as lawyer, Secretary of State, etc. I ended up working with college students in Student Activities. Somehow that little girl within me still exist and all she wanted was to dance ballet. The structure of the class and the movements were still engrained in my body memory as the structure that I have craved growing up. It was as if I given my inner child an opportunity to play a little.
4. Posture. After a couple of classes, I noticed that I was walking straight with confidence that I look great. I wanted the world to see my sexy toned legs. It was I have become visible as I walk straight with perfect posture. I was no longer hiding.
5a. My story… Finally this is the big lesson. I had the opportunity to revisit this story that has been on going ever since I can remember. I am too fat, uncoordinated, weak and I need to do more cardio and lose weight before I start any strength training. Hmm how many years have I held this story? Almost 3 decades! Has it worked? Not so much.
Although doing cardio is very safe and fun for me. This girl loves her dance breaks. Cardio doesn’t change my body as strength training does. I saw the effects of doing consistent strength training in my body within days. I felt stronger, I felt energized. I was able to see my body change in a way I never thought it would be possible.
5b. My (other) story… I needed to wait until I was skinny to take this class. I was aware of my body size in class and that was it. Nobody point the finger well you can’t do these movements until you lose a few sizes. Nope, what I found was love, support, comfort in the room. Each instructor were attentive and they challenged me to continue pushing through. They also provided positive feedback as I did something well. In the process I saw myself progressing and even excelling in moves I didn’t think it would be possible such as pretzel, thighs work, and arm reps.
Morale of the story: I am so glad that I did it! I am ready to take on new challenges such as my Burlesque debut on September 15, 2011.
Tell me your latest fearless adventure. How did you feel afterwards?